did you think of me? why am i being like this way? Maybe i wasn't supposed to born in this family. I;m not a part of you. yeah maybe. so, hand me a knife, or you just come and end up my life. thats it.

Good bye

meaningless

可笑 在家说自己最会想的是你
驾摩托去学校罢了有问题吗? 天天听你吵吵吵 好像那摩托会爆炸这样
我看不用摩托先爆炸我先自杀身亡

不知道为什么 我最近都很emotional 也不是我要的 这不是我 我不会为了这些事情而去胡思乱想 可是 事实是 我突如其来的会胡思乱想 搞得我 没有一天不想要去自杀身亡

身在这个家庭 犹如不被重视 待遇如非亲女儿似的 姐姐欺压我 我尽量忍气吞声 妹妹欺压我 那就太不可理喻了吧？我没有尊严？我有的你看不到 是你们拿去糟蹋了 别再诋毁我的梦想有多么龌蹉 是你们的思想失败 不是我的问题 我哪里不好 我改 你们看不见？当你们自己瞎的吧 相信我能做的 没有几个人 连自己最亲的家人 也只有一个原因相信我 你们根本看不见我的心是怎样的 或许大部分人的心都是心形的 但是我可以告诉你 我的心不会是圆的 尽管你们说我有多冷血的话 都是你们培养出来的 我可以跟多少人有多有笑你想过吗？ 我的内心慢慢变成内向你想过吗？我每天过着犹如行尸走肉般的生活 多痛苦没人想得出 我看我已经有了轻微幻想症 迟早演变成精神病








朋友还是吗？好朋友吗？第一好朋友吗？别忽悠我了 我知道我不是 或许我真的不是你们心中理想的好朋友 我也没资格 既然没资格就别再找我聊天了 我不喜欢眼看着说自己是她第一好朋友的人跟其他人聊得兴起却看见我在一旁也没理会 我看你们永远都不会了解为什么我要离开你们
其实我压根儿就不想留下来 这间学校 给我的感觉是地狱 你们？ 给我的感觉是陌生

!

有时候想 自杀可能比留在这个家不断地被骂被羞辱来得好！
为什么自己的头发不能自己做主？ 莫名其妙！
我更希望你们把我送去给寄养家庭 越远越好！ 最好不要是这个国家！
剪短剪短剪短剪短 要剪你去剪！
我也是有脾气 你有想过为什么我今年的脾气那么烂？
你以为我要的吗？ 动不动就骂 不是我的错也骂
我是人不是畜生

PMR?

Sorry
I failed to you to everyone.
FAILED to myself!!!
I'm a loser.
Extremely worse worse worse LOSER!

Didn't reach my target
And got the bad result

When I got into the car
I cried
I never lose like this
NEVER

Totally screw
Totally.............

I can't imagine........................ what's my life suppose to going to be.
Screw????????

No
I settled the target,
Wait and see.......

This time i promise
never break my word again.
At least not to me.........

Totalllllllly failed

The moment

The freaking moment is coming soon. Dated 19th december 2012.
I'm worrying about if I didn't reach my target or even worser than my target much more and more... I think I will Jump to sea better than stay here to humiliate by those sucker.

everything will change

Yipiiiiiiiiiii.................................... Im gonna crazy about my BAD BAD BAD result and the freaking rule to push us to cut short our hair.
I can't imagine how would I look after I've been cut my hair. COULDN'T IMAGINE AND MY COLOURS HAIR.
Next year I swear not to play much, everything of course.
Focus all of it on my education. Those BAD LIGHT, I want it to explode.(omg, IM TOO BAD! laughing O.O)

No short hair please.
I can show you how many factors that you couldn't find out.(should I change it to you just take advantage of us? you got the benefits and we got the FREAKING bad, short and UGLY hair.)
You could have command us, but the hair is mine. You have no right to cut it.
Because I have the right to sue you about '侵犯人權'

Let me show you all those factors:
1. Freaking hot weather, those sweat will makes us feel 'pekcek'.
2. when im gonna study, the hair keep touching my face, it makes me feel uncomfort.
3. when it longer, we should hv cut it shorter than b4. and how many times we should cut in a year?
5-6? how much did i gotta waste for it? Rm15 once. Rm15x6= Rm90
2 years, Rm180. and the fees of petrol? Rm200 at all.
We gotta waste up to rm1000 in school, why should I still waste those money in those UNPLUGGED thing.

See. How gorgeous YangMi is.

Please thinking about us.

Gone

一切都不同了只是我天真的以为一切都还有回头的余地(Not full of guilt.)
时刻提醒自己 全部都变了 你变了 我变了 大家都变了 昔日的感情没有了
有多少次我叫你们出去 就是为了我们的朋友聚会 老实说 我不喜欢朋友的聚会朋友带上男朋友一起去( 我的脾气就是这样 ) 或许以前我不会介意 但是我不同了 有一点我可以告诉你的事 我成熟了 只是我害怕 我害怕我会失去你们 可是事实是 我在慢慢失去了
或 许没有你们我才可以更独立 你们不了解我 了解我的也只有那几个 可是真正会关心我的会有几个？每次想到这里 我的心会痛 我可以没有男朋友(因为不会发生在这里) 那是因为我在乎你们 可是就是要失去了才晓得吧 一切回不去了 move forward! give up!



*谢谢你们给我的美好日子 我今年的生日我很满足 真的 谢谢你们

I can get what I want, I can do what I want to do. I'm not a genius, but I'm not RUBBISH.